If you do a thing for 3+ weeks straight, it becomes a habit. Really.

The urge to reach out to the phone and text has died. I can spend time online without refreshing my email every five minutes and/or checking if my messenger is working fine and my status is available.

I HATE not being able to do any of that. I HATE missing you when I'm happy. When I crack a real awesome joke, I miss sharing it. When I think of something really sarcastic and funny, I hate not hearing you laugh. I hate seeing emails by your name in someone else's inbox because it only drives home the point that there isn't anything from you in mine.

I know its pathetic, but I still keep my phone on loud when I sleep so that I can hear it ring, should it ring. Something pulls at my insides at the thought of hearing your voice again, and not in a good way - it makes breathing hard.

There, I've said it.

I'll use itch guard, but I will not give in. I won't.

P.S. Random, don't worry.

• The mother of all inventions is this - "7 days of love". Bottle with 7 pills - each capsule opens up and has a paper inside it. A love note, if you may. How can you not love a person who buys you this? :D

• Space is good, space is great. I hate it when people crowd me or push too much. I actually retreat faster than you can say "retreat".
  
  You create too much space, though, and you can be very sure you'll lose the person.

• It does become tough to re do your house when you are faced with options like the following :

• Maruti 800 drivers are the most cautious drivers on the road. It's a fact.
  
  
• Be very careful who you give control of your life to - who you let in, who you decide to share your emotions with. Very few people keep their promises, and fewer still actually care.

• I'm extremely glad I have people in my life - whose voices I just have to hear and everything becomes ok. A terrible week just fades away after talking to them for 10 minutes.

• I'm changing the world one person at a time. By making people stop use the "k" instead of "okay" or anything else. "K" is one of the most detestable words in the history of the world. It denotes indifference and that just sucks.
  

• Rahul Dulhaniya Le Jayega has to be the most depressing show on national television. Who wouldn't want to marry an over achiever like this person? 20 year olds who still have their entire lives in front of them are putting more than just their lives on the line - all the hopes and dreams that live in tiny recesses of their beings - all of that is being put on the line. How does someone find the strength/stupidity to do that? For money? Really? Parents who actually prodded their daughters into doing this show actually exist?

• Carnegie Mellon University, Mays School of Business, Kelley School of Business and University of Washington all want me. Little old me. I'm so proud of me. I've slayed the last few demons with this achievement :)

• Pretty sure I'll decide on Kelley - can't wait for the excitement to take over :D

• I was so sure he'd call today. He didn't.

• I just realized I have a weird fetish. I collect paper bags. I love paper bags. And hotel toiletries. So now you know what to give me if you ever meet me :)

• Bad stomach! Haven't eaten in 4 days.

• What's with dad's and marriage? I'm so glad I'm going away for two years at least. I'll be the one with the visa. Ha ha ha.

Hope you guys had a great week, and wishing you a better one ahead!

All my love.