I'm standing on the threshold of what is to be the most important year of my life. Instead of seeing where I need to get to, of how everything I've ever wanted will soon come true, all I can see, is me standing in the very same place around 3 years ago. To the dot.
All the locked up memories, stuff I thought was a thing of the past- the good, the bad, the ugly and the most ugly- it's all back. Add to that list insecurity, major doubts, a visit by old ghosts, the damn voices in my head, you're getting the idea. That, should explain my sudden loss of words.
And I'm shit scared.
Takes guts to jump even with a parachute. Relax.
Right now, i'd jump without one.
SG.
I know how that feels, especially when the ghosts overpower you.
It's spooky that all this happened just a couple of months ago.
anyway...you'll live through it...no matter what...all the very best though.
I have been living through it, dunno how long it's going to last.
'Glad you go through though.
All my love.
Make friends with the ghosts.
And hold strong. You'll be fine... *hugs*
Thankus.
Sure thing, kiddo. After all they're just wisps of condensed vapors right?
All my love.