I'm picking up from where I left off in the last post. There's not much left to say, but whatever there is, needs to be said properly.

Sometimes "it" may not be something as stupid as losing a boyfriend or girlfriend or a crush or getting a boyfriend or girlfriend. At times it hurts real bad. And you try to hold on to it, because pain is the only emotion you can actually feel.

I've been down this path before, and I'm going down it again. So as to make my point clear.

As humans, we are very very inclined to actually enjoying the pain. More than we realize. It might sound sadistic but fact is- we're all guilty about something or the other. It could be having too much, or giving too little. Or having enough and still wanting more. Or anything in between too. Bottom line- we're guilty. The quantity makes the difference.

So, when the pain comes along- we enjoy it. When I say enjoy I don't mean you go out and party or... well, any of the things that you associate with the "happy" enjoying. What I mean when I say we enjoy it is that some where we believe we deserve it. It acts like a balm. It's a very neutral and numb feeling. And that's what makes it attractive.

Initially, it's best to just give in to it. Do the whole go- with- the- flow thing. Time, though, makes the pain pass. Or it's affect on you pass, at least. At this juncture- you can either think of ways to hold onto this state of numbness or let it go and embrace life and start living again.

This is when you need to go re- read my previous post- we all mess up. Sometimes things are just messed up. Sometimes things mess up real bad. But there is NOTHING, and I mean nothing that is so bad that it can't be corrected. No mistake that can't be forgiven.

Say, for example, at the very extreme, you killed someone. You're still alive aren't you? You're alive for a purpose- even if that purpose is to pay for your deeds and make things right. You could pay by crying about the fact that you did do what you did do or didn't do what you didn't do or get out there and do something about what you did do or didn't do that you shouldn't have done or should have done.

The key is to make the payment positive. And with that, I rest my case.

-Courtesy a Digital Signal Processing exam.

Emotions totally mess you up.

Even the happy kind. They make you too happy, and then when reality sinks in, you become too miserable. If you're already too miserable, then anything that happens just makes you either too "fine" with the way things are, or more too miserable.

Basically, everything is in the extreme. Black or white. Left or right.

But we all know that there's a few hundred shades of grey in between black and white. And that there's a lot many places in between the left and right. That's real life. Not the extremes, but the few million shades of everything.

So, STOP over reacting!! Sure, you can do the whole crying- your- eyes- out- thing or the jumping- on- the- bed thing, just don't drive yourself to the jumping- off anything that is at your height or more above the ground. Or driving into stuff.

Once you're done with screaming into the pillow, or pulling your hair or pulling some one else s hair- sit down and think rationally. Set aside the negative energy and focus on how and why whatever has happened REALLY affects you and what you can do about it.

So what if the other person doesn't love you anymore? Think about it- did you really love him? Or were you just in love with being in love? Are you really ok with him digging his nose and tasting the "booty" in public? Are you really ok with the way his trousers are just on the verge of giving in to gravity?

Alternatively, are you ok with all the bitching she does? Do you really want someone who cries over a broken nail in your life?

So what if you've flunked a paper? So what if you can't cook?- if what you're upset about is not being able to cook. So what if you embarrassed yourself in public- only people who can laugh at themselves are actually secure about who the are, what they stand for.

You get the idea.

Shake yourself for me. You're only 20 odd something! You've got your entire life ahead of you. It's not the end of the world! Chill dude.

(And those of you who know me, knows how much it takes to actually get that yankee phrase out of me)

I'm not saying whatever you'd have done was right or wrong. Nor am I trying to belittle your pain or suffering. All I'm saying is, no matter how bad it might have seemed then- YOU can get over it. Make things right, and move on. You just need to set the emotions aside, and think with a clear head. And then do the "right" thing. Just remember- it's not the end, until it's the end you want it to be.

Be good to yourselves,

All my love.

So I've finally been officially given the right to wreck havoc on the streets, and in a four wheeler that too. Which also gives me the right to be the one yelling obscenities and swearing at the other "sthupit" people on the road! Yay me.

I've been running the following sentence through my mind since last evening, if some one can shed some light, please do.

So I've finally been officially given the right to wreck havoc on the streets, and in a four wheeler- nothing less?

Oh wait. I just got it. So I've finally been officially given the right to wreck havoc on the streets in nothing less than a four wheeler. Ha.

Best part is, that I don't have a two wheeler licence. The only two wheeler I can ride is a cycle. Making this a first. And I've promised ma that I'll get the two wheeler licence done some day- using influence- my name, no cash, only. And THAT will be the day that I'll know that I've made something of myself.

Sis the great, not getting the irony the first time of course exclaimed at the obvious- a two wheeler as a mark of your success? When the first car you've learnt to drive is an ikon?

Hope you guys are doing great, and not even a smidgen less than that. I'm just a week away from my finals, and hence you will be treated to more frequent posts- you are hereby warned.

All my love.