My latest craze for hummus only matches my love for Ethiopian food. I think. I love the curries that the food is made in! I can never sleep well after all the eating I do, but I crave for it once every week st the least.
Made excuses to not be happy today too. Sitting in the park and reading was definitely more important than the gym, because who knows when the weather will go bad? Thought shut being happy and chirpy when Abhi called, but just couldn't because the network kept acting up and the call dropped after each hello and what-were-you-saying. Tossed and turned between acknowledging the situation we are in and pretending that this was all normal and we were both okay.
I have realized that work wise I can on.y be happy when I sm bush, being challenged and my efforts re being acknowledged by all people involved. When these three don't align rven work fails to completely occupy my day and provide the satisfaction that I am dependent on it for. To grow I have realized I need to be less emtotional, but I am not sure of how to balance this ith actually being r,optional enough to work sound the clock because I "care".
It's weird how I have ever felt the pressure of my social likability since I was in college until now. Aren't we supposed to grow more self-assured wirh each passing day? There was a phase when I had just started blogging and I really wanted comments. I would check every 5 minutes to see if someone had reade what I had written, I had to update my Facebook status only if something would be guaranteed at least 4 comments and 5 likes. Somewhere along the line I grew up, got bored of Facebook, and started writing awkward posts that I knew would get no comments. However off late I seek the likability again. I wonder if I should put wedding photos on Facebook to seek the wows. Is that only because of the effort that went into the wedding? I do not like questioning myself on the amount i do care about such things or should care.
But at least I am writing today. Small wins?
Have no idea why I decided to visit today, it's been SO long. I've read up though, and I offer an e-hug of support.
I realize this is slightly OCD of me, but I'm sensing you're tense because this is the first time I've ever seen you make a typo ( or several). This tells me that you're not okay, and I hope that you find something that helps. Liking work is important, I hated my last job and it affected every part of my life. So hold on for the small wins.
Congrats on the wedding! I hope everything works out soon or has ( its been a year since you last posted, almost).
Love and prayers.
“have i gone mad?
im afraid so, but let me tell you something, the best people usualy are.”
― Lewis Carroll, Alice in Wonderland
Hey P! Hope you are doing good.
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Anand
Hey~
I came by because of nostalgia and going through all the blogspots I used to visit.
I hope life's treating you well and things are not as tumultuous anymore; going by previous posts. Although I see it's been a while since you wrote on here, I'll assume things are all good.
Ry