It's one of those times, again, when there's too much thought and words are too few. But I'll try, because bugging you guys seems to be the only way I can solve things for myself.. bless ya.

• Eighteen is a pretty big number, specially when it's going to changed to a nineteen, in around 4 months.
  
  
• I'm so shit scared. I didn't think I could say it... but I've got to. Unless I admit it, I can't face it. And face it, I have to.. cuz fears are best left behind. I don't know about what. Specifically. But I am.
  
  
• At the end of the day.. it all comes down to the fact that we need to be loved. That's it. That's all there is to it. The tricky part is where you have to let down your guard and actually accept someone's love... Because that means taking the chance of having yourself stamped and stomped on. Again.
  
  
• And I'm just not ready for it.
  
  
• Can you believe what a surgery can do?? Make a bro, who doesn't remember I exist, until it's Rakhi time, call me up. Three times in ten days!! Thanks bro... hope to see you acting more like a bro!! ;)
  
  
• The Indian Airlines crew was good this time!! I actually did the Miss India and an Oh.Mi.God. The food sucked, though. Well, a girl can't have everything!!
  
  
• There's friends and then there are friends. And I'm locking myself up in that tower of mine again... to keep away from politics and all that that goes with it. Ugh.
  
  
• You know who you are, and if you ever bisit, thanks for bisiting me today. It felt.. nice. Something I haven't felt in a while..
  
  
• Happy is a very indefinite word. And elusive too. hmmmm... *stroking my beard*
  
  
• Love me when I deserve it the least.. because that's when I need it the most.
  
  
• It's been more than a year and a half... and I don't know when I'm going to be ready to stop fooling myself about things. Relationships and the muck. Schmuck. Sigh.
  
  
• There's a point after which, I don't let people in into my life. It's sad, I know. But I don't know what else to do.
  
  
• And now I'm thinking, I should write to an Agony Aunt column !!!
  
  

I'm going to stop now. I will post something better in a while... Right now, me going to sit and study.. At least, we've gotten that priority straight. Surgeries, major ones, make one want to sit back and re eval one's life. And oh I did. And me is not liking it... Sigh.

Hope your day was better than mine!! Lotsaluv and hugs... Oh and thanks for missing me!! I know you were just saying it.. Don't say it!!

Yours forever sthupitly.

13 comments

1. Navneet on Fri Sep 01, 11:06:00 PM GMT+5:30

   was that last para for me?? coz if it was...i am really cross at you.
   
   and i think you've already written an agony aunt column
   all the best and get well

    
2. Aditya Abburi on Sat Sep 02, 12:21:00 AM GMT+5:30

   no matter what u say or dont.... i missed u and your blog!!!and yeah we all love u!!!
   
   get back to ur books and stop thinking so much..... for heavens sake u just had a surgery give ur head a break.... u seem worse than the docs!!! :p

    
3. AWY on Sat Sep 02, 07:52:00 AM GMT+5:30

   Its so good to have you back..
   Do you know I really did miss you and your posts..?
   I feel like I want to meet you.. Considering we are in the same city.. it shouldn't be that difficult..
   
   But now, young lady... get back to your books..
   And dont worry about the Big One Nine... Its just a little more terrifying.. and you have four more months! sit back and enjoy...

    
4. Sthupit Girl on Sat Sep 02, 09:27:00 AM GMT+5:30

   @nav: aey don't let it get to your head :) it wasn't for you ONLy.. but yeah. And mistar, you've had your days, so make nice.
   
   @ay: thankus thankus. I'm jst ignoring the last part where i'm suppose to sit and study..
   
   @anna: thankus a bunch girl, considering it takes so much effort to get you to bisit :)
   
   Thankus for bisiting guys, lotsaluv and hugs,
   
   yours forever sthupitly.

    
5. Navneet on Sat Sep 02, 10:36:00 AM GMT+5:30

   i have a head?? and i've had my days??? what are ya even talking about?

    
6. Sthupit Girl on Sat Sep 02, 12:00:00 PM GMT+5:30

   you dnt have a head? so your like headless? gee i didn't knw that.
   
   You've had your days of writing an agony aunt column, so make nice.
   
   Pah.
   
   Yours forever sthupitly.

    
7. Vishal 'Tommy' Thomas on Sun Sep 03, 12:09:00 AM GMT+5:30

   :).. back to thine best i see.. me back for weekend again ! :D

    
8. Ry on Sun Sep 03, 03:19:00 AM GMT+5:30

   Glad to see things are back to normal..
   
   Or back to how things were normally.. abnormal.. normal... they dont really make sense do they @_@
   
   Study.. Well im the last one on this planet to ask some1 to study.. lol but if thats what makes you happy go ahed :-P
   
   I on the other hand study in a college where i dont have anything to study, but i come home daily iwht burns and cuts lol
   
   Ahh! the good old studying days...
   
   Rythwin...
   
   ...
   ..

    
9. Neo on Sun Sep 03, 04:27:00 AM GMT+5:30

   w00t, didn't knew you were back and wah? two posts already!! hmm, thats a speedy recovery. hope you are doing well now.
   
   Study and finish your exams, till then, we will wait! ;)
   
   --
   \/..Peace..\/
   
   NeoDarwinian
   A little bit of gibberish tehre here and.

    
10. AWY on Sun Sep 03, 07:48:00 AM GMT+5:30

    well..
    I still would like to meet!!!

     
11. Saranya on Sun Sep 03, 05:19:00 PM GMT+5:30

    Nice that you're back. And what's scary about turning nineteen?:)

     
12. Saranya on Sun Sep 03, 05:20:00 PM GMT+5:30

    You'll make a good agony aunt, you know..:)

     
13. Sthupit Girl on Wed Sep 06, 04:28:00 PM GMT+5:30

    @everyone: thankus for bisiting guys... my hard drive is making it's monthly noises and creating problems... and i'm busy with my tests and assignments i missed.
    
    I will post, but not till the weekend... hope to see you guys then,
    
    Lotslauv and hugs,
    Yours forever sthupitly.