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" By three methods we may learn wisdom: First, by reflection, which is noblest; Second, by imitation, which is easiest; and third by experience, which is the bitterest."

Ultimate Complexity

This thing I wanted to write about... It's kinda like a theory. I'd formulated it, a while back. I've tried telling, talking about it.. But it just felt stupid. Un formulated, at times. Not well defined, at others. Shantaram, which I've been begging all of you to read, finally, did the deed for me.

I was shocked and amazed to find a piece of my thoughts, figments of my imagination, in words on pages of paper that I'd already started loving. What amazed me even more was realising that my thinking was similar to just another regular guy trying to make money buy selling made up philosophy. Not. Because it is similar to a guy, who is just telling his tale to the world. And it's not even his... if you want the specifics it's a theory, one of the Mafia dons in Mumbai believed in. A patron of sciences and philosophy. Anyway, that's for you to find out when you read the book. Which you should.

I've decided to put this into words. Even though I don't know if I should be scared, happy or plain and simple book myself a room in the Agra Mental Hospital. Because, this is something Shantaram was told, by a man who had seen the world... who'd been taught by some of the best. It's something he advised Shantaram to ask every person who pronounced himself learned and great. Some sort of a test. And to think that the right answer lay in what I thought, already, at this age... kinda freaked me out.

It's nothing complicated. Real simple in fact. It was chemistry that actually got me thinking... since you all know I detest the subject because I can't see all this stuff they talk about happening in front of me. Anyway, the thought process started in one of those boring classes.

It is an accepted theory that a big bang, literally, led to the formation of the universe. It started of in the simplest of ways... and has been moving forward ever since. These simple things have been combining with each other in various ways to form less simple, more complicated things. And that's been the way ever since the Big Bang. Moving towards more and more complexity.

Each particle that formed as a result of the big bang, had certain characteristics to it. These characteristics show when they combine with certain other particles which have their own set of characteristics. Depending on how many, what kind and how they combined, a set of characteristics was revealed and the rest didn't show up, until when it was time for them to show up.

From single celled species came multicellular and so on. The universe moved on until it reached what it is today, in all it's glory. Humans, animals, the birds and the flowers. The stars and the galaxies. And it still moves on.

Towards the ultimate complexity. That some wish to call God. It is what the whole universe it moving towards. Other "things" and parts of the universe, like us, are also moving towards. And everything that enhances, helps and aids in this movement towards the ultimate complexity is good, while everything that hinders the process is evil. The easiest way to figure out if what your doing is right or wrong, is to ask yourself: what would happen if everybody did it? And me is not talking about the stupid stuff. I'm being serious here.

Say, take fighting. If everyone were to start doing it, there'd be chaos at first, and then death and dying. Which hinders our movement towards this infinite complexity. Because then we have to start over again... But the cycle will start.. until we reach there.

This gives us a pretty good idea about if we are right or wrong. What's more important is to know why it's that way.

That's that. My thoughts and words entwined with Gregorys. There might be a few loop holes. But, this is by far the most convincing thing I've read. Oh and how does chem come here? The second law of thermodynamics says that every system tries to reach a form with maximum chaos, for that is where it is most stable. When I got thinking about this in terms of life, it somehow led to the theory that I've just laid down for you. And by the by, there is a law, that talks of this movement to the ultimate complexity. I, of course, didn't know of it, until I read about it in the book.

Anyway, happy thinking this over. Let me know what you think. Thankus for bearing with me, till the end!! lol... lotsaluv and hugs,

Yours forever sthupitly.
Read More 21 comments | Posted by Sthupit Girl

due tag

Time of starting? 8.30 p.m.



1. Were you named after anyone? nope.

2. Do you wish on stars? yes.

3. When did you last cry? a few weeks ago :)

4. Do you like your handwriting? i keep changing it, but keep coming back to it. I'm stuck to it whether i like it or i don't.

5. What is your favourite meat? frogs.

6. What is your most embarrassing CD on your shelf? na... i'm me. and the cd's are mine. so they're me. they all croak. ribbet.

7. If you were another person, would YOU be friends with you? no.

8. Are you a daredevil? sometimes. i can be if i want to be about things i want to be.
9. How do you release anger? walking. music. the stars.

10. Where is your second home? my toilet.

11. Do you trust others easily? no.

12. What was your favourite toy as a child? my ragged dinosaur. I still have it.

13. What class in school/college do you think is totally useless? moral science in school and a few in college. Not cuz they're boring, but because they aren't taught properly.

14. Do you use sarcasm a lot? it's my life.

15. Have you ever been in a mosh pit? ribbet.

16. What do you look for in a guy/girl? nothing. I'm not looking for anything in anyone. And if i am.. clean feet, is the first thing.

17. Would you bungee jump? yes.

18. Do you untie your shoes when you take them off? no.

19. What's your favourite ice cream? chocolate chip with chocolate sauce and nuts.

20. What are your favourite colours? black mostly. anything that aint fluorscent goes at other times.

21. What are your least favourite things? dirty feet. Liars.

22. How many people do you have a crush on right now? don't believe in them.

23. Who do you miss most right now? my best friends and my brother. And their bear hugs.

24. What are you listening to right now? Mittwa.

25. If you were a crayon, what colour would you be? Black.

26. What is the weather like right now? there's a soft breeze blowing and there's the smell of rain in the air.

27. Last person you talked to on the phone? my best friend.

28. The "first" thing you notice about the opposite sex? feet. and then up, from there.

29. Do you like the person who sent you this? yep. i guess. though i think he's forgotten he sent it, it's been that long.

30. How are you today? sad.

31. Favourite non-alcoholic drink? Fresh lime soda.Sweet and Sour mixed.

32. Favourite alcoholic drink? Haven't had one as yet.

33. Natural hair colour? brown.

34. Eye colour? brown.

35. Wear contacts? yep. now i do. but prefer my specs.

36. Siblings? yep. younger sis (read: pain).

37. Favourite month? ribbet. I love it all year around.

38. Favourite food? Chinese. Spicy.

39. Favourite day of the year? Each day baba...

40. Have you ever been too shy to ask someone out? Yep. And I like it better that way.

41. Scary movies or happy endings? happy endings, mostly. but sometimes i'm all for scary.

42. Summer or winter? monsoon, if you must.

43. Do you want your friends to write back? yes

44. Who is most likely to respond? i dunno

45. What book/magazine are you reading? shantaram

46. What's on your mouse pad? i don't have one

47. What did you watch on TV last night? The suite Life of Zack and Cody: Disney channel.

48. Favourite Smell? Rain on the ground.

49. Have you ever regretted breaking up with someone? i've never done the deed.

50. Most tiresome thing you’ve ever experienced/done? If your expecting me to say this, then your going to be disappointed. I think it's... ummm.. nothing. I love everything I've done. Else I don't do it.

i tag... lemme see... Koze, Sykora, Anjan, Viewer, Triya, Ry, Feelix, and whoever else is visiting. yes, I am jobless. yes, I have better stuff to write about.. but it's still forming. And it's too important to just write about haphazardly. Enjoy.

Lotsaluv,
yours forever sthupitly.
Read More 23 comments | Posted by Sthupit Girl

he said yes!!

Greetings.

A lot has been going on. And it will go on and on. And on. So, me thought, why not stop, look around and appreciate :) So, let's join hands and... kidding. This whole "blocking" by the government to deal with people using blogs as a means to convey distasteful information, according to me, is Okie. Meaning... I don't think it's effective and i also don't see why there is such a big fuss. Yeah, I can't see some pics on my blog and all right now... but then, hell, your talking about national security. I'd also like to point out here *ahem clears throat* that with freedom comes responsibilty. Responsibilty to express your thoughts and whatever but also to not cause harm to others who might not or might agree with you. So, all this freedom of expression is mumbo jumbo. However, I'd like to have my blog back.

I went for a play the other day. I've been out every evening since last friday!! It's a record for someone like me.... all this travelling to college and my trip around the country that i've done in two months, usually gives me a craving for my night t-shirts and my books and music in my room. But keeping busy is the key right now :) The play was done by the theatre society of my school.

Seeing these little kiddos go up there and trying their damnest possible to keep you falling off your chair with laughter... made me feel older than usual :) It was amazing... I mean, there was a time when these very same brats reached my waist.. and now they tower over me and have the capacity to keep me glued for two hours!! They got The Pied Piper of Hamelin to India, Chennai to be exact....was bi lingual.

Oh!! And guess what? I finally managed to gather up courage and go ask my HOD if I could start a newsletter in college... and guess what he said??!! YeS!!! yay for me. hehahahhaha.. So, that gives me work to do. Wish me luck. But I'm thinking with Kaushik on my side, I'll do good. But still... wish me loads of luck.

Me is going to stop, before I blabble on and on and on and on and on. Just wanted to write. Loads of love and hugs with the hope that you had a lovely day,

Yours forever sthupitly.
Read More 20 comments | Posted by Sthupit Girl

because

It's kinda funny.. I was reading a piece in the newspaper today.. in the magazine section, that I nearly puked on. It was on love and how we should let go of all the "hurt" and leave ourselves open to new oppurtunities.. and how love is what keeps the world going. Utter bullshit. And it's bery surprising that people still talk in such cliche`s and believe in them.

I do agree and believe that love is what makes the world go around but then love aint just what you share with the opposite sex. It's what you share with your mum, dad, neighbor, dog, neighbor's dog.. and the other people who play the smallest roles in your life too. But somehow I've seen how we, as "teenagers" somehow seem to neglect all this love and stick to the "love" and the "special someone" we spend half our lives looking for.

Ruin ourselves, looking for. Like Aytida put it the other day, I mean the chances are one in six million. And that is, if your lucky. Instead of giving this love and giving appreciation and accepting appreciation from these people, who at the end of the day are the only ones who stick around for you, we end up sobbing for strangers. Giving up our ideals for them. Self respect and self esteem for them.

The list is endless.. the stuff I've seen my friends do, friends of friends do, for this so called "special person".Who might I remind you, will only walk out on you, at the end of the day. Month. Year. But he/she will. Makes no difference if your the guy or the girl or the girl who plays the man for the guy who plays the woman in the relationship.

I probably sound like I'm just ranting because I've just had a fight or something... It is said that Hell hath no fury like that of a woman spurned... I am pissed. Bloddy pissed. Yep, that's a bloddy with a single 'o' and a double 'd', so sue me. Why? Because these days even friends walk out on you. People you've trusted for 6 long years. Had faith in. Had faith in to have faith in you even when you didn't have no faith in you, just so that something would keep you going.

I'm not trying to sound crannky. At least not anymore crannkier than usual.. I'm just looking for an answer to a very simple question, if you can't trust someone you've known for a lifetime to be there for you, then who can you trust? I actually spelt bery with a 'v'. So, now you know I'm serious.

Tantrums, tears, happiness, sorrow.. anything and everything. To deal with all of it just like you did for them? I'm starting to reach to a conclusion. And that is, that all this is just a myth. It's just a waste of time and energy and emotion. You'll probably get more out of feeding a stray dog. I know it sounds... mean, crazy, whatever.. But, I'm serious.

According to the article, you're suppose to take what you've learnt and move on. Sure, like to L.A? THAT would be simpler. And more practical. People aren't taps, that can just be switched off. Well, at least I am not. And from the looks of it, I'm one of a kind.

If friends walk out, what am I suppose to expect from others? Ha. Anyway, before I introduce the 50th line of thought, I'd like to say one thing. There is no "moving on" that anyone can do. There is giving in. And forgiving. To yourself, and yourself, in that order. And when your done forgiving, your ready to take on the world again.

Does that make me sound cold hearted? It does na? Yep, that's what it is.. Ice princess, at your service. But seriously.. I've reached a place where I try to push out emotional entanglements from my life. Have been at this place for a while. Yuck. But I like it simple. All this stuff people waste time on... boy friends, and crushes and drugs and what's in and what's not and gossip... it IS a waste of time. I'm not trying to put anyone down or anything.. I'm just saying. Okie, that was the 51st line of thought.

I just wanted to write.. because.. well, Because. Eggs and tomatoes are welcome.
Read More 11 comments | Posted by Sthupit Girl

Dear sis

A long long time ago, feels like eternity already... I think we're talking something around 14 odd years or so something dropped into my life, and it's never been the same. Hellish, heavenly and a downright pain all together in a matter of few minutes... that's me sis for you.

Yesterday while on the bus, I was still wondering what to give this young lady for her birthday and then it struck me... her room's blue, and blue is water... water meant fishes in awesome colors, green, purples, oranges.. and loads more. And I haven't touched my paint brush in ages.. haven't done anything on a large scale.. So I thought, what the hell? Called up ma, and told her what was on my mind.. she told me to get a seat as fast as I could and sit.

I started at 6:00 PM last evening.. worked into the night, attended a full day at college.. Till 4:30 PM, gave up my seat to an old lady.. which meant standing up for an hour, walking the rest one kimi home... and then again worked my ass off till 9:00 PM.. when finally, things were just like I wanted them. For my sis. This is what I did...



It ain't yellow.. that's the light talking. Lighting, I mean.

Hope you have a lovely day... May God bless you with the best that there is... Loads of love, and a million thankus.

Hugs,

Yours forever sthupitly.

P.S: I haven't done any painting work since.. well, since.Because? well, Because. Just worked with black and white.. No color. Na-huh. So, this ain't THAT good, but yeah.
Read More 11 comments | Posted by Sthupit Girl

it's a lonely life

Sigh.

lol... today was one hectic day. But was one of the best... 'cuz we had lectures only in the morning. This noon I had to host a debate session in class. Did pick up a few topics, some really really good... but then, since attendance wasn't really really important alot of people didn't turn up. And with whatever was left, I had to make do. And that's what I did... I chucked the hi funda topics and stuck to the popular easy and "in" topics. One being reservation and the whole hoobaloo and the other being the misuse of tv and interent. Real easy, I know. But you can't do much with the others I'd picked up, without prior preperation.

So they yelled, and fought and I moderated.

Gets a person thinking.. this debate stuff. Na.. no thinking stuff for today.. just spent an hour and a half working out a program for tomorrows class, don't think I really have the patience to do any more thinking and typing.

The weather is really good... yep, it's raining. And I absolutely love the smell of rain on the earth... plus, there's a bery bery nice breeze too. I almost typed breeze blowing :) It's one of those nights, when you snuggle into your bed and catch up with the latest on your phone or dim the lights and pick up your favoritest book and read... oooh and don't forget the music. I'm thinking Phil Collins, Rod Stewart, Keating.... :)

Okie me is going to stop before I spoil everyone's mood and then no one can enjoy the rain.... Have yourselves a lovely day.

Sweetdreams.
Read More 5 comments | Posted by Sthupit Girl

conversations


Munchkin: It's nice to have you around.. just to talk. Specially, at times like these when I can't figure out what's creating those butterflies in my stomach. Thankus.


Pumpkin
: yeah, that's k... you know I'm always there..

Pumpkin: what i don't understand is how come your still around... after everything I've done to you. I've insulted you, your relationship with a certain someone even though I know how much it meant to you... and on and on.

Munchkin: So? you've apologised... and you didn't actually mean all of that. So, what if we fight? I'm still here, because I want to be... between friends, if you can't forgive and forget, then it ain't worth it. And what's more, I love you just the way you are... they don't make friends, better than you.

Pumpkin: Yeah. But, I'm sorry.

Munchking: Hey.. that's okie.. I don't hold any of that against you.

Pumpkin: No, your not understanding.. I'm sorry.

silence

silence

silence


Munchkin: So your leaving?

Pumpkin: For your own good.

Munchkin: Uh-huh. Sure.
Read More 10 comments | Posted by Sthupit Girl

simply comicated or complicatingly simple?

Being pushed into this post by nav... na.. actually, have been meaning to write on this very topic all day.. but have been indulging in lotsa tv, triffle pudding and calories. Bunked college. A full day.

Simplicity.... It's kinda tough for me to describe what it means to me. Because, as you've seen, I'm actually a very complicated person but I love simplicity. As in, in the head I'm complicated and in life, I like simple. See.. even this sounds complicated now.

Simple...I call myself that, because if you define simplicity like Koze , then I am simple. No decking up... whether I'm beautiful that way or not, that's the way I'm most comfortable with my skin. Simple I am because I like a simple lifestyle. It doesn't mean that I don't like to go out once in a while, or that I don't like letting my hair down... I just like doing it the simple way. Friends over for pizza, just out for coffee... something like that, and that to once in two months or something. I like the fact that I can lie in my bed, in my bery nice new room, and enjoy a good read at the end of a day. Or just sit with dad and watch the late night news. Or be on the phone at twelve in the night, catching up with friends and family. I still believe in romance, or did till yesterday... And I get goosebumps when I watch the Airtel add. And beggars know I'm a sucker. And I let old ladies take my seat on the bus. And that even though I curse afterwards, I let some bitchy-looking-for-a-fight women take my seat instead of playing who can shove better, on the bus. That's simple sthupit girl for you.

What ain't simple about me is that with friends, people I'm really close to and with people reading this, I actually think aloud at times. Sometimes I fight just so that I don't feel bad about whatever it is that's making me feel bad. Those stupid dumb fights which friends are suppose to look right through and tolerate you until your ready to talk about whatever it is. The fact that while I love red and black over all other colors, I really don't have a favorite color. While I love chinese there are times when I love pizzas or ma's parathas or chocolate or anything else. What's even more complicated about me is that while sometimes I'm the rough and tough I-don't-need-anyone types, there are others when I do. And I think ALOT. And with the rate at which things are going right now... I'm going to be insecure for life. That's complicated sthupit girl for you.

So, basically I'm a very simple complicated person. Uh-huh.

What's your take on simple and complicated?
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